(Ep9) Mother’s Day & Mental Illness – Missing Out On A Mom

I used to pray, and pray, and pray, please don’t let me be like mama. So the more that I come now to understand what my mother must have been going through all alone. Honestly, now I admire her more. While I was praying not to become her, it turns out, I learned later on in life that my mother was praying too, and she was praying to God to not let her kill her children. I regret keeping her at arm’s length. And in shunning my mother, I ended up suffering the most because I missed out on the best parts of her for fear of the worst parts. That’s just an added sad legacy that crazy brings. Or the fear of crazy is what I should say. Now, my mom is no longer alive and I’ll be honest, not a day passes that I don’t think of her.

 

 

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